The Thoughts of Cory LaViska

By Cory S.N. LaViska

October 24, 2007

I may not be the perfect guy
But you’re the perfect girl
You may believe I’ve lost my mind
But I’ll give you the world

I never was that good with gifts
There’s some things that I lack
But everyday I think of you
It helps me stay on track

The times that I think giving up
Is something I should do
Are saved by just one single thought
Of my arms embracing you

Your soft blue eyes look into mine
My heart, it skips a beat
I love your hair, I love your smile
You make my life complete

Every day that passes by
That you cannot be here
I hope you know in your heart
That I am always near

No matter what the future brings
You’ll always be the one
Who showed me the importance
Of being me and having fun

And if I fail to make you happy
Please know that I tried
Believe me when I tell you
I’ve never cheated, never lied

The things I wish for may not be
Achievable at all
I can hope and I can dream
But it’s you that makes the call

I’ve screwed some things up in my life
I’m not the perfect guy
But believe me when I tell you
That I’ll love you ’til I die

My desk at work has a snack drawer.  Oftentimes I sit there with it open, gazing at the helpless snacks just waiting to be consumed.  And then I think, I should write a haiku about them.  And so it was.  A colorful haiku about those oh, so tasty ramen noodles:

one lonely ramen
sitting inside the drawer
eat me you bastard

So now you know.  Yes.  I do have a creative side.

By Cory S.N. LaViska

September 5, 2007

I’m sorry for the things I said
I’m sorry for the things you read

I’m sorry for the times I lied
I’m sorry for the times you cried

I’m sorry for the things I thought
I’m sorry for the things I bought

I’m sorry for the times I screamed
I’m sorry for the times I dreamed

I’m sorry that I called it “lust”
I’m sorry that I broke your trust

I’m sorry for that awful letter
I’m sorry I couldn’t make it better

I’m sorry for the teary eyes
I’m sorry for the fake goodbyes

I’m sorry for the pointless fights
I’m sorry for the sleepless nights

I’m sorry that I broke your heart
I’m sorry that I tore you apart

I’m sorry that you had to see this distant, hurtful side of me

I’m sorry

By Cory S.N. LaViska

July 13, 2007

Asleep alone, she lays in bed
Wrapped in covers—toe to head

Gentle skin and long blond hair
Sparkling glitter everywhere

A glowing star, she shines so bright
So peaceful in the quiet night

She dreams of dreams I’ll never know
…envisions worlds I’ll never go

And come the morning, she will rise
Adventure pouring from her eyes

So bright and ready to start the day
I just wish she were here to stay

By Cory S.N. LaViska

July 8, 2007

Feelings of passion explode into tears
All hopes for the future are now empty years

A lack of direction and no aspiration
Stuck in this world, engulfed in frustration

Facing a dream that’s too real to be fake
But scared to admit it, and shy to partake

Their shallow beliefs and conception of love
Contradict all the lessons that were sent from above

So struggle, and strife, we try to be clever
Only to fail with each willful endeavor

A small piece of happiness shows in the light
At once it is gone, like a thief in the night

Alas, we realize that whatever we do
Will never be good enough for both me and you

There once was a time when love was the best
But all of those days have been long put to rest

And I see all the things that, as a child, I missed
All the hopes and dreams, that I long ago wished

They burn in a fire that’s fueled by my mind
Leaving nothing but ashes…that’s all I can find

There’s nothing in life that deserves more regret
Than wanting something that you know you can’t get

But trite as it is, I will never stop saying
Dreaming, hoping, and perhaps even praying

That one day they’ll see what I already know
And I’ll cheerfully tell them, “I told you so”